What was I thinking

Wtaf was going through my head my youngest is only 15 months old and my monkey brain was like omg lets have another child RN like bitch what do you want and was I paying attention to my brain no of course not I was looking at my son's baby pictures like wtaf so what did I do I didn't take my birth control for a week did my husband know I stopped yesterday he did he was like alright.... So I guess him and my monkey brain were in agreement like yeah have another child when we can't afford food as is sounds like a spectacular idea not to mention every time I have had a child I have hemriched. Ahhhh so now I am just pacing around because I'm such a fucking idiot like wtf why was that my brain last week and I feel like it's too late for plan b. God damnit maybe I won't get pregnant and my body will know to be stubborn I mean shit it took 4 years between my oldest and my youngest to get pregnant again ahhhhbhhhh fuck bad decisions God dammit I mean excuse my French but fuck red states God damn it.