Relationship Issues

I just found out I’m pregnant. My boyfriend (now ex) & I have been having issues because I wasn’t making enough time for him which is understandable because I work full time but also a full time mom of 2 toddlers. I tried to explain I’m having a hard time learning how to balance my job, children, & a new relationship and he stated he would be patient. He in fact has not been patient, I have been sick with the flu for 2 1/2 weeks and I told him how once I got over it then we will have a date weekend gateaway and he says “Don’t worry about me focus on getting better”. This flu has not been letting up and I’m not properly catering to it because of my very physical strenuous job. Tonight I tell him I will swing past @ 9:30 just for a kiss and come spend time with him tomorrow when he gets off of work since he has to get up early. I fall asleep and wake up at 9:56 and immediately call him and obviously he’s upset so then he starts saying how I’m always falling asleep lately and it’s annoying him and I’m telling him it’s because of the pregnancy, I’m falling asleep sitting up.. I’m not even feeling the sleepiness, I can sit down and not even know I fell asleep. I apologize over and over, he’s yelling and then I just get tired and tell him “I don’t care” which is wrong but I was tired and frustrated because I’m not doing this on purpose. He hangs up the phone and then calls back and says “fuck you bitch and everything you stand for, if I see you outside” and I didn’t let him finish, I hung up and blocked him. Never seen that side of him and I’m disgusted honestly. I will not be keeping the baby either bc my first 2 were from a DV relationship and he KNOWS this so to threaten me honestly broke my heart. He called me damaged a few days ago because I told him I wouldn’t go back and forth without a solution and now I’m starting to believe it. I hate that I picked myself up from the last situation and I’ve let another man dim my light and make me feel less than and worthless. Probably just pregnancy emotions, this post honestly just turned into a venting session.