My husband rui. My bithday again.

I fill like blowing up and I don't have anyone to talk to. I have been married for over 6 years and.my husband has ruin every single birthday, Valentine, etc. I started my birthday crying today and his answer is always I have done nothing wrong and how I ruin your day, of course this is a retorical question, if I try to explain he will ignore me and denied every I say. I was hoping the last birthday before.the divorce would be different, but I can hear now how stupid that sound. He ruin my whole birthday week. I only wanted a shower, change my sheets and being with him (not sex, may be like a hug or something). Sex has been out of the picture almost since day one. He did promise me sex on my birthday, that he will try, but he was only.trying to avoid me the day before. After time I understand how he groom me to end up with him. How nobody will want to, how he isolated me. I am upset and sad at the same time. I look forward to my birthday gift to myself, my divorce papers.