Severe dentist anxiety

Okay so i haven’t been to the dentist in like 6 years and when i was pregnant i threw up everyday every hour so some of my teeth are decaying and I’m so fucking embarrassed. I do brush my teeth everyday, try to floss everyday, clean the plaque the best I can, clean out the holes that I have multiple times a day, but I feel like they are just going to think I’m nasty and don’t take care of my mouth. My husband asked to look at my bad teeth in the back and I would not let him bc he would think I’m gross and never touch me again. So I’m embarrassed for when he is there and they take pictures for everyone to see. Getting work done on my teeth also gives me anxiety bc I don’t want to feel anything they are doing. Not to mention the amount of money it’s going to take to fix all my teeth bc I know I have a lot of cavities from little to huge. and I might need an extraction for one back molar and root canal in 4 or 5. Ugh anyways i need advice or even just some pep talk to get me through this. I feel so damn nasty.