I’m so mad and angry!

So i was 3 days late (not anymore) on saturday i was expecting period , but late at night i had tiny speck of brown blood mixed w ewcm n thought af would come, sunday rolls around and im only wiping brown, not much the whole day nothing on my pad , then around 6pm it stopped, completely stopped, now its Monday (3days late) i didnt bleed until now 11:00 just tiny brown in my pad and a little pink mixed w ewcm when wiping, but ik its my period, i wasn’t gonna test until tomorrow, i was so hopeful. NOW im mad and angry that she wanted to come late and play w my emotions, crying at work cs wtf😭😭😭😭😭 4years and no pregnancy not even ONE! im so mad. Pls send me baby dust :(