Telling Family and When….

Almost 5 weeks, waiting for bloodwork Wednesday and then not sure what my doctor will do. Still very early so trying to stay hopeful but cautious. Just had a call with my dad of they should hold off visiting in May and just come in June. I was thinking I’d tell them when they were here in May but if they are not coming till June, I’d have to tell them over the phone which I don’t want to do. I’m worried if I tell them they should come in May and something goes wrong I will be so sad when they are here that I don’t have news to share with them I’ll be heartbroken. They are deciding in the next few days so there is not enough time to see how things turn out to decide. Should I just tell them to come in May and risk it…. They have no idea and wouldn’t expect this at all so I want to see them when they hear.

I don’t know why this call hit me so hard with my dad today. It kind of just made everything real and thinking about all the things that need to get decided and who all needs to be told and work travel and events that will need to be dealt with. I am so happy and excited but also a huge planner and until I feel better about moving forward, I don’t feel like I can plan and that is causing me to stress. Sorry for spiraling. My husband doesn’t understand!!