venting and need help

I literally need to vent here and ask advice because I don’t like talking shit about my mom or our problems to any of my family or friends.

I need to move out and I need all the tips and advice yall can give me.

Me 23f single mom of a 16 month old lives with my mom and stepdad & my two sisters 22f,12f . My bills at home are “240” of rent & all the shows subscriptions ( like Netflix , Hulu & etc ) & I pay for my car insurance, gas, phone bill and food. I also help around the house as well.

Two weeks ago I asked my mom and sister if they can watch my daughter for 5 days straight without me, so I can go on a 5 day trip to Nicaragua with my 23f cousin so she can see her dying father before he passes away and I don’t want her going alone. They both said yes. My mom obviously doesn’t want me to go but she can’t stop me bc she’ll do the same thing. She always helps out other people.

Today literally as I’m eating my lunch with my sister and baby. My mom starts saying with an attitude how I need to tell my stepdad or if ima just wait until I’m over there. So I say I’ll tell him today when he gets home and she goes no I was only asking And I answered back what is he gonna kick me out. Bc they threaten kicking us out for anything. So that set her off and she was like I’m just a mother that worries and wants the best for her children and I said yeah u do but you also like to control what we do . And she goes no and I said yes we can’t go anywhere without asking permission and she goes yall go out every weekend, to the beach, to ride jet ski , to your cousins house to etc. and my sister goes at least when we go out we go with family. And mom goes yall go out every weekend don’t say I control yall. So I said just bc my stepdad goes out Friday night and Saturday night and doesn’t come home until 2am doesn’t mean we can’t have a life. He goes get drunk while we are literally chilling with our kids in the living room at my cousins.

When in reality we don’t go out every weekend, maybe just once outta the three days of the weekend. So I said you told us we needed to ask permission to go have a sleepover at our cousins like if we are teenagers. And she goes and starts bringing up every bad stuff I did after I graduated highschool ( freshly 18) . literally screaming at me like if I don’t have my daughter on my lap. I was tearing up and I told her that she’s toxic for bringing up old stuff I did when I was a teenager and that ima go and do drugs so she can have something to actually talk about now. So she goes says go and do drugs your only ruining yourself. she got a phone call and I said answer your phone and she goes no and continue to scream so I stayed quiet bc if I answered back I would’ve been so rude.

I have so much locked up anger and emotion that I haven’t let out.

I just wanna move out. I need to move out. I’m sick and tired of walking on eggshells wondering about my future and I don’t even go out like that bc I be to tired from working and being a mom. So her saying I go out upsets me bc I only go out to my cousins house let’s say around 5pm and I’m back home by 9/10pm bc she’s already texting what time we coming back.

Anyways

So I work a full time job working 40 hours a week. Been there for two months now. Paid biweekly and Getting paid $17+ tips an hour. I have a credit of 804 and my car is in my name. I have about $19k saved up half cash half in my bank . My goal is to own my own home and land. Which I worked hard for. But that money can be used to cover all things for an apartment.

I would like to move out on my own so I need to know what budget I need to look into.

Once I move out I need to find another sitter for my daughter as my mom won’t watch her anymore. ( she gets 150 a week for watching her) I can’t beat that but ik it’s for the best.

I will still be on my mom insurance. Unless she kicks me off. Next payment is in August, we do every 6 months payment.

Will probably have to get the cheapest but good internet lol. And get an antenna for the tv if need to watch something.

Food wise, I’ll shop at cheaper places and learn to meal prep and stop buying outside food to save more money. Instead of me buying food for 3 people I’ll just buy food for 1 or none.

my work schedule is 7am- 3:30 so good hours for my daughter to go to a Sitter as much as I don’t want to but shit happens. I cannot live with someone who throws my past at me every chance they get and wants to control everything.

Ik it seems like I’m wrong, but there is so much more stuff that is wrong. Ik I can be wrong sometimes and I try to correct myself but I think moving out will save me mentally and emotionally. I won’t have a burden on me and I’ll have the freedom to do whatever, whenever if I want with my daughter.

My little girl is only 16 months and was watching everything. That was not right. Even if she won’t remember but I will.

Y’all seem to be confused, she watches my daughter when I work only. When I leave the house to do something, I have my daughter with me.