Just need to say it somewhere.

Edit: thanks for your responses. Feels good just to know someone read it. He knows I’m having a hard time.. he has said he wants to move/move home for me and I know he would but we moved here to pursue his career.. the move was financially stressful (even more than we had anticipated) and we are just now out of debt. This job is much better on my husbands mental health and he makes better money. So it’s hard to justify moving.. I do talk to him… he knows I’m trying but also knows my lack of improvement is hard on our relationship.

It’s just hard ladies.. I really don’t know what to do to improve my life.

2 years ago almost to the day my husband and I packed up our lives (I was happy to) and moved across the continent to a new country, a part of it and a city neither one of us had ever been to.

He and I have been together half our lives and have lived many places.

Well, I’ve been trying to stay positive all this time.

But I honestly, truly hate it here. I never use the word hate - but I do.

I’ve been trying to be positive but it’s a lot. I have a baby. No friends no family and none of my hobbies are easily accessible here, if accessible at all.

It’s kind of a nightmare, but I believe in using poor situations to improve yourself so I’m trying my best. But I’m trying not to cry as I write this because I’m so tired of being here.

I don’t expect anything from this post. I just needed to finally say it today I guess. Maybe I’ll make me feel better.