This happened 8 months ago, before I went no contact with my mom last month. I’ve been journaling and reflecting on why I feel so much hate toward her, and some of the things that I’m remembering I’m just wondering if I’m being dramatic about.

So I swore I wouldn’t have my mom in the delivery room when I had my baby, but when it was happening I got scared and called her and she was there for the whole thing.

I wanted to play my pre-made motivational playlist and when I put it on my mom got judgmental about the song I put on. She said if it were her, she’d put on some Bruce Springsteen, and then started singing ‘born to run’ 🤦🏻‍♀️ While I was literally in labor. I said umm okay maybe I can just put headphones in? And she said yes that’s a great idea! So that’s what I ended up doing. Because I didn’t want to bother my mom with my music I chose to listen to while literally giving birth.

And while I was pushing (it was 3ish hours of pushing I think) in the middle of it, she started having a conversation with the doctor and nurse about food trucks and festivals. While I was actively pushing my baby out. I was so shocked and felt like I was just in the way of their conversation.. my husband could tell I was getting upset and asked if I wanted them to stop talking, and in my true people pleasing nature I said no, and proceeded to burst out crying bc I was confused and just wanted them to stop.

I find these things really bizarre but I’m wondering if anyone else would disagree?