The difference *TW* Abuse (SA, Narcissistic, Phyiscal)

When I was 17 years old I started dating a 22-year old, little did I know how it would affect me. At first it was loving; things were moving so fast, and honestly I was going through so much at the time. By 18 I moved out and started to live with him while in high school, I ended up pregnant and had a daughter at 19. (Picture when I was pregnant)

After 6 months I ended up pregnant again, and things were worst; we were married and I felt like this was what ‘through better and worst’ meant. I wasn’t allowed to have friends, cameras were up in my home just to watch me because he didn’t let me work, and then used it against me when I needed clothes or shoes, if I spoke too much there was a glare. He started using phrases like “slave” to address me. After having my son the abuse got more intense, When I was a week postpartum, he wanted sex. I said no repeatedly and he said “your my wife I own you.” and you can guess what happened.

I felt like I died inside, I went into a deep depression.

This photo was taken by my aunt; on vacation; this was when the abuse was at its peak. I had started to go to therapy, which is something that he was not happy about. My eyes began to open and I created a bank account and got a job. (Without his knowledge) i played it quiet; and spent many nights planning my escape. The day I left was abrupt; but I had to. I left with a mattress, a toddler bed, and a dresser. With clothes and essentials in black trash bags. It has been almost 2 years since I left.

This is me now:

If you read through this whole thread I want to tell you thank you; if you read through this thread and you are going through something similar, i hope this shows that it does get better.

Edit: I want to say, Thank you all for your love, support and kind words. 💗💕 I saw a comment that mentioned something of the lines that they hadn’t been able to leave; I want you to know that it took my five years, and on my third try; I was out. On average it can take up to 7 tries. It’s definitely not easy, especially when it’s abrupt. If ANYONE on here needs help with finding resources that can help or simply to talk about everything. Please send me a message; I am a Crisis Counselor now. I will gladly be by your side and be a support that you need.