I'm 14 in a month and have depression and anxiety. I take Zoloft and my parents are very  watchful if me because they know I'm depressed and I have been suicidal they don't know that I still am suicidal. I have sever anger issues, I am extremely defensive of myself. I get into fights with everyone because they offend me and I won't stand for that. I do not except apologies from most people because I think people are mean and horrible. I trust no one. I act super narsistic but I'm actually really insecure. I see no value in my life or anyone else's. I never feel remorse or grief or guilt. I wouldn't feel bad no matter how much pain I caused someone. I want to kill myself so bad because I think I am horrible. Is there anything I can do?