The beginning of March my Angel baby was supposed to be born. Ever since August when I miscarried my husband and I have been ttc. Finally, shortly after angel baby’s due date we got a BFP with our Rainbow! Two Tuesdays ago I had my first scan. I was so nervous. I’ve been good at knowing what to look for in US, but it was pretty clear to see that my uterus was empty, no fetus. Still a huge void waiting to be filled. I was told to wait 2 weeks and come back for another scan. Well the 2 weeks are almost over and I am so nervous! My symptoms have come and gone, constantly having be question every little twinge, nausea, loss of nausea, not being able to fit in my pants, then the next day fitting with ease. I say I’m prepared for another storm but all I want is to be able to get those tubs of baby clothes, and empty crib out of our storage. Paint the walls of the nursery, and fill that void I now call my womb.. Praying, wishing, hoping that I see a little gummy bear in there with a healthy flicker of a heart beat.