I’m a SAHM of 4 under 4 and I’ve been struggling with PPA and PPD. I haven’t had a day/night or anything longer than a 2hr nap away from my kids in the last 2 years (except for labor).

No one wants to watch 4 kids and I get that. My husband works a lot so I’m alone most of the time. My MIL has been wildly unreliable and is the sole reason I haven’t gone back to work. She agreed to be caretaker of the kids and I ended up getting fired from missing so much work due to her being “sick” or some sort of excuse. She’s also not really sick. My husband has caught her multiple times, out with friends on days she claims she’s sick.

I know she’s not obligated to watch the kids but we paid her and she offered. So again, no break in 2 years. She finally came around this week and offered to take 2 one day and the other 2 the next day. While I’ll still have 2 kids, it’s much more of a lighter load. She was supposed to take them Thursday and Friday, but today (Wednesday) she messages my husband saying she has plans and might not be able to take them. I started crying. I begged my husband to say something because he almost never stands up to her and buys into her excuses. I sobbed pleading to do something because I need a break. I can physically feel myself breaking down and I just need a damn break.

He just says he can’t do anything and she’s not obligated to do anything. And he sat there while I cried and did nothing, until he got up to leave for work. Idk what to do. We can’t afford daycare nor can we find one that could take all the kids together.

I just want a break.