When can I smoke weed after C-section

‼️IF YOURE A JUDGEY KAREN PLEASE DONT COMMENT I don’t need to hear your opinion ! ‼️had my C-section a week ago and I’m wondering when I can smoke .. weed was my remedy helped me be more relaxed then an anxious ass person but then I got pregnant stopped smoking for my baby to grow healthy 😭 but now I’m freeeee lol and been thinking about weed to calm my nerves and hormones that are going crazy right now . Am I a bad mom for wanting to smoke ? I would be going outside and just taking a couple puffs then right back inside I go I also know to change clothes after and wash my hands I’ll be brushing my teeth too so my breath won’t smell lol I don’t want to risk my boy getting second hand smoke 🥹

And at 6 weeks postpartum will they test my pee ? If so then I’m just gonna wait 🫤🥺 even tho I really need it for my anxious ass