Currently I have one more baby on the way after already having a baby last year and the last year before that getting a BBL… I definitely regret having a bunch of kids because it’s the summer time again and I’m supposed to be having the Beachbody that I paid so much money for although I know that a child is a blessing at the same time it was my choice to lay up and be careless…

I plan to get one more body job procedure done after this baby but aside of that three kids is already enough and I see that I haven’t been smart on making decisions.

The kids dad that I am with can’t even get his license he’s never drove and if I would have known in the beginning I wouldn’t have been with him, he still also working to get a job while I’m in school but my plan was to pursue my music with just me and my two kids not saying that I regret my third son because I don’t but now I fourth one just seems a little too much especially with little to no help…

I’m still trying to stay in school and stay motivated but now I feel I’m going to be looked at as the girl with all of these kids… The other day someone told me what was I doing with my life although I know there are people who have more kids, but I just wish I felt different about the situation and I don’t.

Lord knows I don’t regret my kids and would do anything for them but I’m depressed with no help in doing everything alone and even then just feel like I’m carrying a big load I didn’t want a bunch of kids but I didn’t feel I wanted to keep having abortions either, maybe I should’ve used birth control instead of being careless not thinking about my future.