How should I feel?

Hi so little backstory I am 24 been with the same man since I was 16. Well I was never really in to wearing shorts, leggings or any of that I love pants. Well when I got pregnant with my second I started to wear shorts and he never said anything to me. Fast-forward to the summer after I had my son I put on a pair I have had for years and he called me a hoe for leaving in them and going to the gas station across the street with my god brother and was saying me and my god brother were sleeping together...and called me a bitch when I got back because I accidentally put ice in his drink ( he hates ice I told him I could get rid of the ice or go back and he just threw the drink away and didn't talk to me). Well this was 2019 I have not left the house in shorts since... Well it was just way to hot today and my now 4 year old had a T'ball game so I put on some fishnets and some shorts I bought for vacation because it's all that will fit me ( as all I have are shorts from 2018 and they no longer fit) well I got them on my son said mommy you look so pretty with them on ❤️ and then his dad looks at me and said thought those were for vacation I said ya but it's just to hot I will wash them tomorrow and put them up ( we leave in 2 days to go on vacation) he then looks at me and says well that is definitely not your style 💔 ( but he talks about how good girls look in fishnets and shorts I am absolutely heart broken honestly idk if that's the right feeling but it's how I feel) he then told me before he left for work I had to put on a ring for the day. And I told him no then he accused me of wanting to sleep with and flirting with one of my son's coaches! 😮 Because yesterday at practice he came over and said my son's name and asked if he was right and I said yes with a smile because my son was happy they remembered his name and then he talked to my son and said he was happy he made it it was his first practice then walked away ( my son just started last week on Wednesday and they put him straight in a game so this was his first "practice ") and I might add we are going to Mississippi to visit family. HE TOLD ME TO BUY THE SHORTS he even helped me pick them out and wanted me to buy a two piece bathing suit and walk around in it to wich I said no because that's just not me I hate my body 😕 and he got all upset but then says this to me when I put on shorts like what ? Oh and might I add I love heels 👠 but I can't wear them because he is short and doesn't like girls who are taller then him 😮‍💨🙄