5 months without my son

Monday is 5 months since my baby boy was born sleeping at 36 weeks pregnant. He was sweet perfection. Am I horrible for trying for another baby already? I feel like somehow he will be upset or feel we are replacing him. I know this isn’t logical but it’s how I feel. This round I took mucinex.m, prenatals, bbt, baby danced the whole 2 days leading up to ovulation, and 4 days out of my fertile window, and will tonight & tomorrow right after it.. I’m praying this is my cycle because of all of this 💙💙