having a hard time after miscarriage

really struggling here. me and my boyfriend have been together 6 years and have an amazing 22 month old son. We’ve been trying on/off for another baby for a pretty long time now. I would say once our son turned 9 months old we were ok having another and didn’t take any precautions. I wouldn’t say we were officially “trying” at that point, but definitely wouldn’t have been upset if it happened. We finally got pregnant in February of this year and we were over the moon excited. I had some spotting and some things were just off/different than my pregnancy with my son. I really stressed myself out and for valid reasons bc I ended up having a miscarriage at the end of March. I would have been due in November. Every time I see a new pregnancy post I’m crushed. We started trying again recently after my first “post miscarriage” cycle, and last month I could have swore I was feeling the symptoms again and was genuinely shocked when my period came. I really thought I was pregnant again. It’s so hard going through this, every week I think about how far along I would be and my heart is just completely broken. I wish I didn’t have to start over and I don’t know what to do. I just want another miracle 😔💔