Hi everyone.

I’ve been married for 7 yrs and recently we had a 6 month old baby. My husband is a hard working man, very sweet, caring and loving since day one.

Before having our baby I noticed on his phone that he watches porn. We never touched each other phones to be clear. But you know when you have so many apps open and you close them you see the apps?! Well that’s how I saw it on his phone one day because he was going to show me something and that’s how I saw it, and that happened a few times. We laughed at the moment because we were in public but I told him to stop. I also noticed it on his computer (google search ) and he also has a drive which one day accidentally found it conected to the computer.

Our intimacy hasn’t change but recently we are having our fun night on fridays. One night we were having sex and I had my eyes closed and I smell something weird. Well, it was him inhaling something and I asked him what was that and he threw it on the floor. I pick it up and he told me it was something from the sex shop. Few weeks later I was opening the mail and when I open our bank statement I noticed that he had bought something at the sex shop 3 times already. I asked him what he bought and he told me it was the thing the he was inhaling last time and I said well I see 3 transactions here and the last one was way after that episode. He couldn’t give me an answer and then he was switching conversations. Lastly he said he bought a lubricant but he throw it away because of how I reacted last time and he also bought porn movie. I also belive that he has a only fan account, I haven’t found anything like that but I have a feeling.

I also noticed the he’s been drinking more and he wants to drink more when we have sex. He said that when he drinks he last longer. He also wants to incorporate toys to our intimacy which is okay with me but he is more excited than me. I personally don’t like the alcohol smell. I usually have a drink just to get tipsy. I honestly dont enjoy the time when we have sex because of that. I feel he thinks of other women from porn or like if it wasn’t me who he’s doing love to.

I have asking him for the divorce because of alcohol. When I met him he did not drink as often as he’s drinking now. He started drinking when we got our house and he started collecting tequila bottles. Everytime we want to have sex he drinks. When he’s cleaning the back yard he drinks. When he’s on his computer (he’s a Dj) he drinks. We have our carne asadas and I’m okay if he drinks on those occasions but not that often.

I have a feeling he has someone but the thing is that he’s always home with me, he’s a family guy and always take me out to eat. He loves to takes us out. We even have our vacation reserve already this year to Cabo. He also took me off from work so I can stay home with my baby.

I don’t know if it’s just me that is exaggerating due to the porn and alcohol. What do you think?