about a month after my son was born, i was going through it mentally & physically. i felt like i was failing my son. i had no help, i would nag & complain to my fiancé about why he isn’t helping or how he wasn’t doing enough.. he called a “ mental break “ the baby & i left to spend the night at my moms.. he called saying he wanted us to sleep in a comfortable bed & be at home where the baby’s things are & he got a hotel.. that was the end of may.

On Saturday, July 8th, I went through his phone & there was videos of a naked girl..

I’m hurt. Devastated. Mad. Angry. Just everything.. but yet Im not acting mad towards him? & i think it’s because i don’t want my son to see me angry or hurt or sad. I cry when my sons asleep, he’s only almost 3 months so i know he doesn’t understand.. but my fiancé just goes on like everything’s good. I guess i’m doing the same. idk. I don’t have a good job or a car until next week, so he’s really my only transportation.. can someone give me advise !? 😭 idk what i’m doing tbh :’)