Horrible sex with husband

I understand this is my fault. I just need to vent.

I’m in my third trimester of pregnancy, and I’ve felt completely distant from my husband most all this pregnancy. His biggest complaint is lack of sex, or lack of good sex. I’ve mentioned feeling my love tank empty, and his response in return is that his is too.

So anyway, tonight I’m hopes to feel some connection to him, I initiated sex through text while he was at work. He took it and we laid down to do so later.

Well when we got to bed, I faced away from him, and just started crying. Honestly at how distant I felt. He didn’t know and started touching me to have sex. I swallowed my tears. Essentially told myself I needed to get through this. Hopefully it’ll help us. I started to get into it but it didn’t last as sex is already uncomfortable, and mixing that with my emotions just led to a big turn off but he was already inside.

Last thing I wanted to do was stop because I know he would get mad. So I kept going, trying to fake it and up my pace hoping he would just finish. Well he didn’t and I eventually got to tired and asked him to thrust, and he did until he finished. I got up to shower and just fell apart, silently, in the shower. It must have been too obvious that it was terrible because he left the bedroom and is now on the couch to watch tv and sleep. He only sleeps out there when we aren’t ok.

Honestly I just feel broken. I feel like I can’t do anything to feel close to him.