need an explanation

it’s been exactly 9 months since i gave birth to my son via c-section. my birth was very traumatic and i’ve searched up what happened to me everywhere and i can’t seem to explain it. i’m just going to make this very short and simple and if you’re about to give birth please do not read this, i really do not want to scare any mommas to be.

basically i went into labor and after 17 hours and only being 7 CM dilated my doctor decided to perform a c-section. everything was extremely unprofessional in my opinion. i am not a medical profession but some of these things do not seem right. for example, they wheeled me in and made me move myself from bed to bed even though i had an epidural and couldn’t feel the bottom half of my body. secondly, the doctor didn’t check to see if i could feel anything and just went straight to cutting me up. i felt everything so i started to scream. the anesthesiologist behind me freaked out and starting injecting anesthesia to knock me out i guess. i remember my husband saying something, i replied “really” and this is where it started to get freaky. after responding i remember my life flashing before my eyes like memories of my life in tunnel vision. then i accepted death. i kept telling myself that i was going to d*e and i accepted it and felt extremely peaceful. after this i remember still feeling the doctor stitching me up and feeling that sensation but i wasn’t awake. i finally woke up like an hour later and the whole room was spinning. i ended up needing a blood transfusion because I lost so much blood and apparently i had “undiagnosed anemia” as well so that made matters worse because they did not find out until after i gave birth. any thoughts? sorry if it’s not the best explanation this just puts me on edge any time i think or talk about it.