I had my first hormone related meltdown with my husband tonight. I'm still getting over some hurt from my (party) friends. It's like all of these suppressed emotions from my bad relationship with my dad came out and I sounded like a jealous wife. I know my body is about to change but I feel ugly and as if I'll have nothing left to offer my husband. I know my husband loves me and I deserve to be with him, but that voice in the back of my head was screaming, telling me how unworthy I am and that none of this happiness will last. He doesn't understand, but still supports and loves me because he is so wonderful. I'm scared that I'm losing control over my emotions. I don't know what else may come up down the road.