Just need to vent and hopefully some of you can tell me I’m not alone and it gets better.

I have 4 kids. 3 boys 1 girl. I’m unexpectedly pregnant with baby #5 and I was really hoping and praying for a girl. (I say unexpectedly because my youngest was 3 months when I got pregnant with #5. I was suppose to get the IUD as soon as I popped him out but my bleeding was too much so they decided it was safer to wait till 6 week check up. I told them I would rather find someone to do a hysterectomy. Two days after my insurance cleared and the day I was going to schedule my hysterectomy, something told me to test and sure enough… pregnant)

I really prayed for this one to be a girl. But turns out, it is another boy. 😞 I will love him just as much as the others, but really devastated that he’s not a girl. My daughter has begged for a sister. And although this is a slip up, I really hate I couldn’t give her one. (I’m high risk because of preeclampsia, MVR, postpartum preeclampsia, and high BP)

Does this feeling of devastation get better? 😞