Divorce- give me the details

My husband and I have been discussing divorcing more and more lately. We are finally at the point where we are ready to make a move.

But I am having such a hard time pulling the trigger because of my kids. I have a 5 year old and a 1 year old😭 I literally cannot imagine putting them through that.

Not to mention that my husband is an alcoholic. The thought of taking the kids from their dad KILLS me!! But then the thought of leaving my kids alone with someone who cannot be responsible enough to stay sober infuriates me!!

What the fuck do I do?

Those who have gone through it before, how was it? Does it get easier? What about the kids? I am sobbing thinking about my girls.

My 5 year old breaks down in tears when I ask her if she wants to go to the store with mommy or stay home with daddy because she “can’t choose who she loves more” 🥺. I’m dying thinking about it