Sahm vent

How do I get my partner to actually understand that he don’t like me as a person. It’s like he doesn’t want to believe it or something. For example, he never thinks about calling me during his breaks at work. Not even a text to ask how I’m doing. I text first. If I don’t, won’t hear from him at all. Another example is it’s 11 pm right now and he’s been outside with this dude working on his car. He just sort of vanished I had no idea they was going to work on this car. Which is pretty rude I’m bored asf in his house. Also right now I have bv which I’m off sex for. How convenient it’s so out of character for him to be doing this shit. He told me he would be in 10 mins ago can’t even clarify to let me know he’s going to be out all night long. I don’t see how hard that is to do. I’m just getting tired of repeating myself, I’m tired of him over using the words “I didn’t mean too” or “ I didn’t realize” or “I didn’t think” how many times does a person need to actually say that shit before they make it a life change to where he don’t need to be saying that shit. I’m also not giving him sex either he can suck a dick. I’m good 🙌 and not just because I have this infection but regardless those days are over. He still ain’t in and I took a break from this post lol it’s now 11:11 pm. His phone is dead. That’s funny how he isn’t on his phone and he don’t care if it dies. Normally he cares because he’s always on his phone playing a stupid game and social media omg. I asked him to be off his phone 4 days per week and forget it exists then I got into day 4 of him being on his phone I said what is it too hard to stay off your phone? He said kinda. He has a god damn phone addiction. I don’t have to be on my phone. Ever since I’ve had my son it’s not the coolest thing I have anymore so I can give a shit less. I just think he would do better with a person who wants to be on social media all the time, not creating a life with their partner. I feel like a picture frame, just there for looks, or the hell of it. It feels like a dead end situation. And I want to end it, but he isn’t going to be easy to deal with. He wants us here so he don’t pay child support and shit. He won’t admit it but he’s a fucking zombie and not available at all when he’s here with us. He doesn’t talk. When he has no problem talking to other people who ain’t us. I really don’t think I can sustain this anymore and like I said earlier he don’t want me to leave and too add I might have to get a ppo just so he don’t bother me. I want to be appreciated, not taken for granted. I’m so sick of cleaning up after him but I want my son to have a nice living environment.

I sound high? Ummm ok maybe I’m just upset.

Well when he’s home he doesn’t have to play games everyday. If he’s always on his phone how does he have the time of day to even interact with his own child? That don’t even make any sense. If he gets a phone call, cool. It’s self control is what it comes down too. What’s more important to you, your child or playing games with people you won’t ever meet. Like come on with it man.

Look I told him I don’t want to be with him. He said I don’t have a choice. I have to be with him. According to him. So even still if that’s true and I’m looking “controlling” that’s fine. The guys on his phone all the damn time. Obviously you are cool with your partners being mentally unavailable. He don’t even take care of our child he’s zoned out on his phone. His depression isn’t my problem I been busting my ass taking care of our child. Meanwhile he gets to game, watch his shows and go wherever he wants? Uhhh no. He’s not. That’s unacceptable. He expects me to take care of the baby when he can’t take care of the baby for an hour so I can door dash like wtf. I want to leave but my son don’t even walk or talk yet. His dad will neglect him because he already fucking does. I do everything. He only wants 50/50 if I do actually leave blah blah this app isn’t about women supporting other women. He’s got all day to be on his fucking phone. He can come home and act like we exist. Fuck. How hard is it? Your watching other people’s stories or newsfeed and these people are out of their homes creating memories, not at home watching someone else live their lives. Keep y’all men who barely think of you. I however don’t want a relationship like that, it’s easy