Just need to get my feelings out. Had my first procedure today to terminate my first pregnancy ever. I was surprised I even got pregnant, was starting to think I was infertile for a while because I didn’t get pregnant when having sex. Not trying to brag about it, just thoughts I had. I am young, only 25 so not exactly very very young but still not ready for a baby. My boyfriend and I are just not in that place yet to do so. Can’t afford it and I just don’t want to have kids right now, not sure I even want them down the road, still uncertain. But nonetheless, I decided to end my pregnancy. Was still in first trimester so very early but I don’t know. Procedure went well, everyone at the clinic was very nice and helpful. I guess I feel relief right now. Didn’t know how I would feel afterwards. But also not sure how I’ll feel in the next few days but I’ll forever know I had an abortion and I was once pregnant. It’s very weird. I may tell one of my friends about it I may not right now it’s just been between my boyfriend and the people at the clinic, and my OB. Just kind of strange I went in with this inside of me and now it’s gone. I am glad I had this resource though and I was able to make this choice for myself and it was the right choice for me. I just have felt a little different and maybe I’ll always feel a little different knowing I went through this and so many other women have went through and will go through it. But also knowing every women won’t go through it. But the ones that do I don’t know if I’d necessarily say it changes you but it just makes things different in the moment. Maybe that’s doesn’t make sense but I’m my head it does. But all in all, I just had to get that out. Very long and tired day but I got through it safely and I’m grateful for that and hope every other woman who does will also.