period waiting

So I’m currently waiting on my period I have all the signs that say pregnant but knowing me I’m scared to test cause of disappointment and ik my period was really just starting to regulate and now it’s late again so it could just come next month but I been spotting only when I have my pants on my stomach no real cramps no migraine to indicate I’m coming on my period cause I’ll get a migraine for 2 days strate then my period will drop. I’m not spotting now because I have on a dress yesterday I did because I had my pants on my stomach but when I got it off my stomach it stopped it’s weird maybe my cervix is low and sensitive cause tmi I was spotting after sex and that only happened when I was pregnant I guess I was just sensitive down there.if pregnant I’ll be like 8 weeks today and the end of the month is next week I’m just hoping that it don’t come and I’m pregnant but only the lord knows at this point I just don’t wanna get my hopes up again…iykyk it’s depressing and I just wanna get my last child out the way at this point my baby is getting older soon it’s going to be like starting all over again