I don’t wanna be here no more

I am tired of feeling depressed, I am tired of feeling lonely, I am tired of my kids father making me feel like I am bad mom , he always telling me he gonna hit me or kill me . I am tired of living in fear . I don’t wanna be here no more I hate my life , I hate myself . I just had a baby a week ago everything is getting to me . All I get is bash in the face , getting treated like trash , my kids don’t deserve a mom like me who can’t even fight or wanna breathe anymore. I am tired of feeling pain