Doubts about the relationship
My boyfriend (24M) and I (24F) have been together for a bit more than a year now. We see each other twice a week (since the start), always going out for dates.
Recently, I started to have doubts about my relationship and I wonder if it’s normal..? So my doubts are because I’m starting to realize that we are , somewhat, opposite in how we perceive things, our preferences, etc. For example :
- We don’t share the same view about what’s a relationship : He says that he see a relationship more of a day to day experience with someone, where the future is not really taken into account. Whereas me, I think that a relationship includes also a vision of a possible future with that person (I’m not saying to plan from the get go, but at least to somewhat think that you will built something with that person eventually - a future together). The other day, when I asked him if I was the one for him as a joke (he was showing me a song that would talk about it at that time ..and I know, I shouldn’t have asked), he told me it could have been anyone and as if circumstances chose that I was there, that it could have been anybody else too… I was really hurt, I would have been fine with an answer like « I don’t know » or something similar to it. It made me cry.. but at least he apologized a couple of days later.
- He dreams of travelling none stop, living somewhere far away from where we live (we’re in America, he wants to move in Australia..🤦🏽♀️) while I dream of stability and living close to my family (I mean, I love travelling, but only for vacation). He’s going in Asia in January for months, making us an upcoming LDR.. and I’m really not sure about that - we barely text each other, and we meet twice a week now, so imagine from a distance.. He bought a one way ticket at first without consulting or telling me beforehand : eventually, he bought a way back to see me at some point - after I told him many times how it was affecting me that I didn’t even know when he will come back - which I appreciate.
- He’s not willing to make efforts to do activities that I wish we would do together since he doesn’t enjoy them much (ex karaoke). I, for my part, make the effort when I don’t like them because for me, his smile/happiness is worth it and it’s not like we do them all the time.
- Yesterday, he told me that I talk too much, he feels like his brain gets saturated from things that we discuss, making him forget everything we say and basically asked me to talk less. I was hurt, I couldn’t talk no more.. we ended the night quickly, I wasn’t talking much since I was tired and sad, and he ended up leaving me at the bus station alone late at night.. I’m a really talkative person, I know that, but it hurts when someone tells you that and makes you doubt a lot. And for me, talking is a way to connect with someone : like, I remember most of what he tells me, whereas he don’t (he says that all men are like this).
Im gonna stop here, but yeah, I’m wondering if it’s normal to think and have this many doubts. I love him lots, and I don’t want to leave him. But at the same time, I wonder, am I really the right person for him? Am I pushing it too much?
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