So defeated.

Ttc over a year now and recently told we're not even candidates for iui due to male factor infertility. Doctor said "it would be a waste of your money". Looking into ivf but its so expensive. Just having a hard time processing all this. Never thought it would be so difficult to become a mom. I just want this so badly. I feel so alone. My partner has 3 kids from a previous relationship but cant have any with me. I just want to cry my eyes out. I just needed to vent somewhere.