Just a sad mum lol

With my first pregnancy my baby daddy came to every ultrasound appointment & with me to the clinic for every issue I had. He was always there. I just never brought him for my prenatals because they’re pretty straightforward & boring lol.

With my second, I did everything on my own. Ultrasounds, visits to the ER because of slow growth & no heart rate being found, & lack of movements. My baby daddy was too busy doing his own thing, drinking. I even had my baby by myself.. just my mom by my side, no daddy. I raised him alone as well. (Same baby daddy from 1st lol)

Now I’m pregnant with my new partner of 2 years, we’ve been long distance these 2 years because he’s focused on his contract work where he lives. Lack of housing in his town as well for me to come there. Anyway, I told him a few days ago that we have an ultrasound appointment on the 10th. He doesn’t know if he can make it, he’s been saying that every time I brought it up. So I just told him last night don’t worry about it. So now I’m just a little upset I pretty much have to do this alone again but jokes on me bcuz we’re long distance, what did I expect lol. And I told him we have to go to the city for a month before baby is due, he’s like “oh I hope everything works out with work by then. If not you probably can take your mom”. Lol. (We have to have baby in the city, there’s no maternity ward here) blah. So nervous for the ultrasound, what if there’s no heartbeat or growth.. or twins lol. I had a miscarriage before this pregnancy.