My husband will drop everything for anyone, but me.

I've already accepted that the Marine Corps comes before me. But now he's pushing me aside for the people too.

My feelings mean nothing to him apparently.

Back story:

He helped this guy move for 6 hours while we had friends in town, knowing they'd be in town. Okay, I was fine with that, I hung out with them.

But today on their last day here, on my last day off of work, this guy texts him and asks for help again and I asked him not to go, begged him not to really, and he was trying to juatify dropping everything and asked me why I was so hateful to someone who needed help, (this is a full grown man "needing" help packing an apartment) the guys just lazy. Its not someone in need or struggling, anyway, I ask him not to go and he tells me its effed up to give him an ultimatum and I end up crying and walk away and when I come back he's gone. He left me alone again (our friends went to go get their car where they left it) he dropped me to the side and disregarded my feelings and decided this guy was more important and maybe I'm over reacting, but he does this a lot and it hurts and I told him how I felt multiple times and I said it calmly and he still doesn't get it..

I've accepted that my feelings aren't important to him and I think I want to leave. I love him but we NEVER understand each other. It's like trying to communicate with a different species, we are never on the same page.

I'm exhausted, I'm so messed up and I know I need to see someone and work on myself, and he makes it harder, not easier and I just feel numb, I'm not even sad, not mad, not crying anymore I just feel like I've accepted it and I don't know where to go from here. I told him I would move oit and he doesn't want that, but that doesn't change the fact that he's still gone and my feelings still don't matter.

I don't know if I'm crazy or not. But maybe he deserves better if it is me anyway.