I’ve been sa’d and I have a one year old girl now. I’ve recently been having intrusive thoughts constantly about someone hurting her. Not sure if it’s hormones or from switching meds but it’s debilitating and frustrating to think about. I want to shelter us but I know that’s not realistic. I finally mentioned it to her dad and he kinda played it off that he’d be there to protect her. I tried to say sometimes it’s not enough to think you’re strong enough to protect her from that. Then we started talking about people we can trust her with and it basically came down to my mom and his dad. He tried to throw in his brothers but honestly the oldest has a strange vibe and the other was convicted for having undera*e content on his computer and claimed he didn’t know he had it. I’m not sure about that. He’s a decent guy and just had a baby as well but it bothers me that he even went through that. I wouldn’t trust my daughter alone with him even if he had his own. My husband basically shut down after I said I wouldn’t because of his past. I couldn’t even explain or try to get him to understand cuz it’s sensitive being about his brother, who I think he tries to look up to. I think it just comes down to I can’t trust a single soul with my daughter’s innocence. I have to trust my mom cuz I need help sometimes but even then I just don’t know. I’m terrified of this happening when I could prevent it. Could I even prevent it? I feel like every other woman I’ve met has been abused at some point. I can’t stand this anxiety and it’s hard to work through so just thought I’d vent. Btw don’t blame my husband. He just wants us to have help too and hasn’t experienced it personally..I don’t think he realizes the cruelty of some people