Overtouched
I’m a SAHM for almost 3 years. I have 2 kids. 2 year old & 9month old. Ive breastfed my 2 year old for at least a year. Plan to do the same for my 9month old. Ive decided to only do a year because of their diet. They have allergies to things thats in almost everything. My 2 year old is a very loving toddler. The thing is I’m on demand breastfeeding so I’m constantly with my 9month old to feed her if she’s not eating regular food. My son soothes himself with tongue thrusting (I’m trying to get him to stop) & ear fiddling. The thing is he fiddles with peoples ears. It helps him to relax & helps him sleep. He sometimes breathes in ears & like tap kisses ears. I feel bad but I absolutely hate it. I am over touched. He does it sometimes throughout the day but definitely every night to go to sleep. I sleep with both of them. So one is on the boob to feed & the other is ear fiddling. This happens every night. I feel so uncomfortable & find myself to start getting angry. I feel bad but at the same time the only time I get my body to myself is when I’m sleeping so I don’t like being touched at all at night. Me forcing myself to let him soothe himself with ear fiddling & etc is making me angry. Not really at him but at myself for feeling uncomfortable & feeling over touched. I just get so angry & start crying because if I stop him he gets mad & starts crying. Idk what to do. I’m so touched out. I just need 1 day to not be touched. To not hear loud noises. To take care of myself. Ive slacked so much on my needs & its making me feel so blagh. I feel like I need the break to become a better mama & wife. I also have mom guilt so its just a tough battle I’m trying to overcome. I also take care of my mother while being SAHM so everything is just overwhelming because my mother usually helps me with my kids. She used to let me get at least 10 min to myself some days. Now since I don’t have her help & on top have to take care of her too is just overwhelming. Just a little rant. I’m so tired
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