Lately ive been on this "will i ever be happy" bender. I have a 2 year old, i had her while on birth control so while not planned i am still extremely blessed to have her. Got married this year and just came back from my honeymoon. Shouldnt i be extremely happy right now? Maybe....if my sex life wasnt in the trash along with my self-esteem and the fact that im still not pregnant with a boy to carry on the name since i married the last man with said name...im trying to bring the little joys back in my life. Like my friends. My hobbies like reading. But i feel like it drags me down more. Doesnt help i only like romance novels lol....maybe i should try new hobbies? Idk i guess im just venting.