MEN ARE INSANE

OKAY LADIES! i cannot get over the fact that an ex has contacted me and is trying to now have a relationship with me. Over a year ago, him and i we’re going steady! i honestly loved him and everything about him including his flaws. At the time it seemed like we could never be on the same page about moving forward. I wanted to start a life with him. I was ready for it all to be with him. I left the relationship WHICH WAS THE HARDEST THING I FEEL IVE EVER HAD TO DO. I did it because at that point what was i sticking around for? after him i met someone else and things were pretty good with the next guy but i never had that spark with him ya know? i ended things with him about 4 months ago and i started casually dating again. I started to like one of the guys i was dating and so now it’s only been him! BUT NOOOOOW my ex has came back into my life and wants what i wanted over a year ago. He’s been doing everything he can to show me he cares and wants me and me only. I’ve never seen this side of him and how adamant he can be. I’m so confused because when i see him trying i hurt for him because i now realize all the good things i remember are now just memories. Part of me hopes that i can be that again for him but part of me feels as if it’s too late…. I don’t know what to do! I’m starting to lose interest in the new guy and he’s so sweet! but now i’m debating whether i really liked him at all or was he just a distraction from the last relationship?