My son is autistic. He has defiant tendencies and aggression. I love him the most but I feel sorry that I can’t change his situation. My mom dad are getting old with no retirement saving - so are dependent on my job. My husband is disrespectful to me and considers marrying me a favor as he earns more than me. I have to justify every single penny I spend even if it’s my salary. My mother in law is toxic and never appreciates my efforts. I’m diabetic and over weight . I look ugly and I don’t feel any confidence . My coping mechanism is to get angry and disrespectful to my parents- which is not fair but in my mind that’s one place I can vent without consequences. They love me endlessly and I’m taking advantage of that. It helps me calm down. It helps me feel that my opinion still counts. I know that’s so wrong . I don’t have courage to move out - because I think I can’t handle my son being alone. What meditation or holistic therapy has helped you all in parenting and family situations?