I have a question ; I know am already 33 years old and that I have the right to live my life the way I want ; but my mother smothered me with the same thing every single day since I was a child. What can I should I do ?

At this point she expects everything from me to move back to Mexico and not come back to the USA because she now demands me to live like she never did . I left home at 13 and since than I have done the best I can to help her and my 2 handicap sisters but I feel like it’s never enough not for my mom or my older sister Maricela who is also very demanding and has never actually want to put much effort in becoming independent. We lost my father on February 7th 2021 and I was schooled because I was too depressed and overwhelmed to fly here for his funeral. Also my sister Maria Dolores is handicapped but she in the worse situation because she the mind of a 3 year old child even though she is already 27th years old and she takes a lot of medication and suffers from seizures. Now I have suffered from severe depression and panic attacks and anxiety for over 7 to 8th years. I too have a lot of issues with other members of my family that has me at the tip of the iceberg and I can’t seem to do enough or do anything right. Am at the end of the robe and want to just jump off a cliff to end my pain . Therapy: I have done it all and family well I do have moral support but the few people I have cared and loved like my mom and sister Mary and uncles aunties well let’s just say it has not worked out for them or them.