Never thought this could happen

Never imagined the pain of what having a miscarriage feels like. It’s horrific. I feel robbed. 8 weeks of dreams. What a horrible start to the new year. Will have D&C next week. I’m devastated.

I went to my first ultrasound on 12/28 at 7 weeks 5 days. Told me I was measuring 6 weeks 1 day. 11 days behind. Heartbeat was only. 77bbm. Did blood work HCG was actually good. Progesterone dropped down to 12.1. But I knew something was not right. I couldn’t wait a week for my follow up. I was in mental torture. So I booked a private ultrasound today 12/31 and she said the heartbeat was so faint she couldn’t measure it. I don’t know how people cope with this pain.