Okay to start out I was due in DEC’ 23 it’s now JAN and I have no signs of labor coming soon. I see so many of you mommies getting your inductions scheduled or already having your babies at 37-39w. IM OVERDUE AND THEY STILL WONT TALK ABOUT INDUCTION. I’m in pain like I literally peed my bed this morning because I couldn’t get up my back and pelvis hurt so bad and then cried while drenched in my own pee because I couldn’t get up from the pee to go take a shower or bath. Had to call my mom to come help me out of the bed and into the shower. I barely sleep because the pain is so bad all the time I just lay in bed crying my eyes out because I’m hurting so much. Every day the pain gets worse but no contractions at all. Just can’t walk anymore. It’s so bad my husband is thinking about taking his leave early because I can’t stand or walk 1/2 the time and we have a 2yr old at home who I stay with all day I can’t move from the couch, I can’t clean, I can’t make it to the bathroom sometimes, I can’t play with my kid because she wants me to sit in the hardwood floor all day, I’m over this pregnancy I love my son I love my baby but at this point I’m ready to raise hell about not getting at least on the books for an induction especially because the hospital is so busy where I HAVE to deliver that it’s taking up to 2 weeks to get a call to come in. That would put me over 42 weeks pregnant at that point.

This pregnancy has honestly brought back so much of my depression and anxiety that I can’t do it anymore I can’t be this depressed because my daughter is begging me to okay with her but I can’t move because I’ll burst out in trays because it feels like my hips and pelvis are gonna dislocate and she cries begging me. I can’t keep feeling anxious that I like 1hr 30min from the hospital and almost died last time so I’m scared I won’t make it in time if I did go into labor leaving my husband with a 2yr old daughter.

Sorry if this is long I just needed to vent.