I’m over this 😭😭

So my husband and I have been TTC for almost a year. End of February will be a year. And the past two months we decided to stop tracking and just see what happens. Because we felt I was stressing to much. So we decided this month we’ll try ever other day or two days. I mean keep me full. So I didn’t know when I was ovulating. But it looks like we did the day before and after. But I just started my period. And I just want to sit in the corner and cry. 😭 I know there’s family’s out there trying for way longer. But my question is. Does it get easier to just see negative test and periods ever month. ? I’m going to order the kegg today because I’ve heard good reviews but I’m also going to order a at home test for my husband to see if his swimmers are swimming.