I know I'm not alone.

So after three long hours of painfully pushing and not getting anywhere. I had to have a c section. Now every time I think about not being able to deliver vaginally? I just get so choked up about it. I can't help but feel depressed about the whole situation. I'm thankful for having my son and all is well, but having a c section really has taken an impact on me. It's upsetting. I feel as if I failed somehow. Every time I'm asked how was labor, I can't even speak about it. Just thinking about it makes me cry. I don't know how to get passed this. It's really bad. Especially when I see and hear about other people's vag birth story. I'm just hurt and I don't know what to do. How to go about this. This feeling is horrible and I don't want to feel like this anymore. How do I forget this? When everything is just a constant reminder. I love my son to death but then I can't hell but feel sad while looking at him. What he went through. What I went through. I don't know how anyone can ever have anything negative to say about c sections. You don't know the difficulty in this. Not just physically but mentally and emotionally. It isn't easy one bit.