My partner and I have only been starting to be serious for three months now. I don't know why I keep fighting with my partner lately. Tonight he finally has had enough and decided to walk away. He said he needed space and to respect him. He said he doesn't feel loved by me. I don't know why I do it. To get attention? To try to test him to see if he'll stay? It's like I have these high highs with him and low lows.

I wish I could be better for him, but I don't think I can be. Maybe I don't love him enough or deserve him if I'm not willing to change right away?

It's his birthday this weekend. Such bad timing my mind is sick and decided to start arguments. I'm on my period so I've just been in a loop of mood swings. I do believe he doesn't deserve to be treated this way. Before he kept saying he'll go through all of these fights with me and he's going to stick with me. I already knew it was too much for him.

I don't want this for him. To deal with my hot and cold self. It's selfish of me to expect him to stay until i get it right. He said we'll talk again in the morning, but idk. Maybe we should break up