There’s this man who I didn’t mean to encounter. He lied and said I wanted to be with him. He used me for many years. We were never together, it wasn’t even mutual, it was just non-consensual.

It feels as though that I was ‘gifted’ to him. It was never a normal feeling knowing him. It felt wrong, he has numerous issues. He liked to sleep around, be aggressive, threaten and manipulate not only me but younger girls than himself.

Recently he came back and he used somebody important to me to attack me. She claims she also likes him. After him saying his cheating I didn’t expect somebody so close to me to do that. He definitely doesn’t like me as much as I thought. This ‘gift’ is not normal. It seems sickening being a part of a small fraction of any of these peoples lives. People are gifted into this world to experience life and love, not the latter explained. Why are men so problematic?

At this point he only enjoys creating trouble. If he can’t control somebody or he can’t stir up a fight he likes to make sure he can in the end. There are a first of many things. But never did I want to have my first encounter of real life to be like this.

Am I the problem? I didn’t start this so I’m so confused as to why I’m a part of this.