How to weird out the weirdos

I am.

Well, I am trying to get mental health help. I have been speaking to a therapist and a psychiatrist and after my appointment today I stopped by a gas station. I want to clarify and emphasize “TRYING.” I feel really out of it. I was put on an antidepressant and..I lost a week where I don’t remember anything…ontop of other severe reactions and I was taken off immediately and I am on full withdrawal from antidepressants before I start another because I didn’t do that last time. It clearly didn’t go well.

To be short, I am unhinged. After my appointment today I stopped by the gas station to get a drink and this guy was… being a creep to put it straight. He followed me around the store and just kept like a shelf between us so I couldn’t see his face but was staring. I waited a long time in this gas station for this man to buy something and even tested it. I walked from one side of the store and pretended to shop, he followed. Walked to the other side, he followed. Just stared. If I stood there, he just stood there.

I have been through a lot of shit y’all and this.. today was the wrong day to try and be a weirdo with me. I grabbed a hot dog off the roller and bee lined to this mf and got uncomfortably close to him, like in his personal space, and just ate the hot dog. I didn’t do anything, I didn’t say anything. I just took a bite of that hot dog and stared him in the eye with a blank expression and he immediately walked out without buying anything.

SO. The gas station clerk witnessed this entire thing and said “I’m not charging you for that, and you can have another one if you want. That guy was weird as hell. He bought something and stayed when you walked in.” And I got 2 free hot dogs and then went home.

Got free hot dogs out of out-weirding the weirdo. Stood there dissociated

as hell feeling absolutely nothing eating a hot dog in dudes personal space. I regret nothing. If a whole other person picked up on the weird ick vibes I know I’m not just mean.