Should I stop before I get invested into TTC

My husband and I have only been married two months and we aren’t really trying but not really preventing but at the same time we want to have another one

I’ve only been intentionally tracking for a month so I didn’t have high expectations but in the past it didn’t take much for me to get pregnant at all

I’ve made terrible mistakes and have always worried if I’ll ever get pregnant again due to the trauma I put my body through and now that I’m finally married and have someone who actually wants children I’m terrified that if I get negatives that I’ll get depressed and start spiraling…

Should we keep tracking and actual take time to plan out first baby together or just enjoy having the BD whether we fall pregnant or not and not stress it

*No offense to anyone that’s been trying for a while just in my own head because I’m due for a period this week and I might be sad if I actually get it vs a BFP*