Plus size and pregnant

I’m just feeling really lonely and kinda depressed being a larger and pregnant. It’s sad when people ask if I’m showing yet…I can definitely tell a difference in my stomach as well as my bloating. But it doesn’t look different to anyone and I feel like I can’t enjoy my stomach growing from baby because everyone is just going to see a larger me and not pregnant belly because it’s not the “average” baby bump. That and hearing “most women lose some weight in the first trimester. Well yes but I’m gaining it back the next 6 months anyways. I was trying really hard to lose weight before I got pregnant and I just feel like it’s messing with me now.