Ughhhhhh I hate how I feel lately

I just wanna cry & I feel super depressed sometimes. I’m 32+5 weeks. I’m just so tired every damn day. I get so overstimulated because I want to do so much at once around the house to clean up. I hate when it gets messy but i also have a toddler. I live alone. Dad isn’t moving in town until April. I’ve been alone throughout my whole pregnancy. Paying bills alone. I’ve been the only one worrying about getting this sorted at the house, getting things baby needs while he’s out going to hockey tournaments & travelling. On top of everything I have to save for our time in the city in a few weeks (I have to spend 3-4 weeks in the city to wait for baby’s arrival, I don’t have a maternity ward in my little town or an OB, my doctor is in the city)

Im just so stressed out. I have to leave my 2 kids for such a long time soon too. I also feel like we need a bigger place; it’s so small. I want to stop working but I can’t. I can’t afford to. ☹️☹️ ughh. Now my car won’t start lol & I have a prenatal appointment in an hour. No company here boosts vehicles, such a small cheap town lol.