Need to vent

Please don’t hate me i just need to vent see two of my sisters can’t reproduce because of health issues one has issues to where she will never bae able to function on her own both my brothers as well and then theres my sister she can have kids but never lets my parents see their grandkids. Then theres me they know I’m perfectly capable of having kids and want me to have at least four kids i brought up getting my tubes tied or a hysterectomy and they’re upset with me over it. I didn’t mean to upset them I just cannot handle four kids (my mom had seven and uncle six or seven aunt four other aunt six) the list goes on i just dont want the weight of it all on me I’m currently pregnant with my second and looking into a hysterectomy right after.